Time Heals all Wounds.

What a stressful few years it's been.. I went through a pregnancy, my husband deployed, gave birth without my husband, & I lost my father. I honestly have no idea how I got through any of that. Right now just typing this little paragraph my eyes are starting to tear up, it's still a struggle to deal with everything God has dealt me.

Landen's first birthday is approaching & 2 weeks later it'll be my dads 1 year anniversary. It's definitely hard to celebrate a beautiful life we were given but also to mourn a life that was taken away from us. Where's the happy medium? Every time I look at Landen I can't help but think of my dad.. Landen's middle name was supposed to be Matthew but because I knew my dads situation and knowing he would either be gone before the birth or afterwards, I wanted to honor my dad in some way. My dads name is Frederick & that really isn't a middle name, so I gave my dad two options either Eric or Derick & he chose Derick. Part of me believes he picked Derick not only because he liked it but because of Derek Jeter on his favorite baseball team.. The Yankees. But I will never know why he chose Derick over Eric. 

I learned grieving has no time limit.. You can go years without a tear being shed and all of a sudden something reminds you of that person and your in a ball crying. The last 11 months, I've felt like going into a ball and crying.. But I have a family to take care of and they come first before my emotions. Some days I just can't shake me being sad and I can tell the boys know something is wrong. All I can tell them is mommy is fine and everything will be okay. But when will it be okay? I wish I had the answer.. I truly wish I knew when this grieving process would be over it. But like everyone says "time heals all wounds".. 

Rest in peace Dad. We love & miss you.

J'Adore VoxBox

The other day when I went to check my maill box I wasn't expecting anything but the normal junk mail, bills, or magazines. When I opened my mailbox I was surprised to see I had a key for the bigger boxes.. I hadn't ordered anything so I thought it was odd. When I opened it I noticed a Influenster voxbox was in there. I was excited to see what was in there since this was only my second one I had received since being a member. In the box contained:

A family size bag of Hersheys Kisses
Men spray lotion from Vaseline
KISS eyelashes
John Frieda Frizz Ease 3 day straight flat iron spray
Ionic Clay Mask from Boots Botanics
& last but not least 3 tea bags from Red Rose Tea

Of course my family of boys loved the hershey kisses, that would have to be one of my favorite chocolates. The vaseline lotion really isn't greasy like most lotions are and it has a nice cologne smell to it, my husband liked it. As for the tea, I'm not a huge hot tea drinker, but the red rose tea, definitely changed my mind, I loved it. The lemon one was my favorite. Who doesn't need some sort of flat iron spray when you straighten your hair? I know everytime I'm done with my hair it always frizzes, but the John Frieda solution will not disappoint you. I tried the clay mask on my husband because he'll pretty much do whatever, lol. His comments on it was, it is messy but after you wash it off your face, your face is instantly smooth. The only thing I haven't tried were the eyelashes, because I haven't had anywhere fancy to go, but when I do I can't wait to try them out. :)